Life is Short

Perhaps it's time for a change of tone. Time for me to get a couple of things off my chest.

First of all, I'm feeling frustrated lately by family members. People who borrow money and promise to pay it back by a certain time, but don't. People who embellish their stories. I'm sure it's got something to do with making them feel better about themselves. And my hair! For the love of God, would people stop making negative comments about my hair!! I like it the way it is--if I didn't, I would change it. I really don't care who you are or what you think... I hate to break it to you but your negative comments really don't mean much to me. All they do is piss me off and make me want to dye it hot pink to piss you off even more! And no, I am not going through "a phase"... this is my life, this is who I am, and by the looks of it you will be taking your misconceptions to your grave with you. That is all.

Other than wishing I could trade my family in for another one, life has been good. I am convinced this whole spirituality/power of positive thought thing I'm onto is really working. Things are coming to fruition and I really couldn't be happier. With every day that passes it becomes harder and harder to listen to the doubt in my mind that maybe I'm viewing life through rose-coloured glasses. No, I believe this is how things really are. Life is co-operating with me for once. However I believe I'm coming to a new road... one where I need to tread carefully. I'm being tested on whether I've learned from the past, and I'm bound and determined to prove that I have.

I had an interesting thought the other night as I was drifting off into sleep. Fortunately I had the sense to write it down. "Perhaps our purpose in life is just to enjoy it" I'm guilty of getting caught up in the everyday stresses of job pressures, debts, family spats (see above), and did I mention debt and the stress it brings?!? lol But I think a lot of the time we forget to just enjoy every moment. I've been paying more attention to my cats lately... the lines in their fur and the way they soak up my attention. The way the sunshine lifts me up in the midst of my midday slump. The happiness I feel opening the door after being away from home for over 10 hours to see my cats waiting for me eagerly. The way a piece of chocolate is like a wave of happiness washing over me. And the people in my life--my friends. The friends who are like family. The stupidest things we find funny... how a trip to Wal-Mart and seeing frozen vegetables called "Tender and Young" makes me giggle like a child and forget about the tears I shed less than an hour earlier wondering how I would make ends meet if one more thing went wrong? The ability to forget the future for just a few moments and savor the present. The ability to make my daydreams my reality, even for just a few moments.

Life is too short not to live, laugh, and love...