Oil and water

What makes me the kind of person that people don't want to get to know? I've struggled increasingly with this question over the course of the past 10 years. In the past six months to a year it's become increasingly frustrating and discouraging. I'm to the point where I feel like I need to go stand outside and scream my frustration to the world. Maybe I should...

I try to be the absolute best person I can be. I try to be kind, fair, honest, compassionate, giving, accommodating... everything that I think defines a "good person" is what I try to be. But yet I still manage to get this weird vibe from people who, if I were water, they would be oil. They just don't seem to want to give me a chance and see what I'm all about. It's frustrating because I have no idea what I'm doing to repel them like this. When I meet new people I try to be neutral... treat every new person as a blank slate. And in that one case we practically do have a blank slate, even though our history is long and deeply rooted.

Why am I not good enough? There are so many people that seem to think so highly of me, but yet then there are a few who want nothing to do with me whatsoever. In one instance I've tried numerous times to extend the olive branch while still trying not to be pushy. This is the instance that hurts the most... for the life of me I cannot figure it out. I have a career... a home... an education. And I'm a damn fine person to boot. I'd think you'd want to see this for yourself. I'd think you'd want to see what I've become, and be proud of me. I know you would be proud of me. But you don't want to see it, and as far as I'm concerned you aren't proud of me. I've put myself through the wringer trying to figure this out and understand why you want nothing to do with me, but to no avail.

I feel like if I could figure out why you're acting this way, then maybe I could better understand why virtual strangers are acting this way too. I'm not "that person", am I? The person who immediately comes off the wrong way to others, turning them off instantly? I'm finally at a point in my life where I feel good about myself... I'm proud of who I am, what I believe in, and the things I've done and am still doing with my life. My self-esteem and self-confidence are no longer lacking, though they do have their occasional ups and downs. So why this somewhat sudden negative response from people? We're supposed to attract the people who mirror how we feel about ourselves, but this doesn't seem to be the case recently. Is this the reason they don't stay in my life, because they have problems of their own and they aren't on the same level as I am? So many questions...

Blood is thicker than water, but does it have to be like oil? And as for the others, this has got to be a part of the bigger plan somehow...