... the mortar didn't even have time to dry!

So... wow... what a night!! I'm not sure how much of it I want to get into on here, but let's see...

I wasn't even going to go out last night. I was feeling cranky and somewhat hungover from my Thursday night drinking. I stayed for beers with the boys after work and kept drinking when I got home. I always end up doing that, and it never turns out well. But the beer goes down so easy after a week at work! Especially after an argument I got into about time zones and daylight savings time. Don't even get me started. Some people are just too stupid for their own good.

Anyway one of my friends twisted my rubber arm into going out last night. She promised some fresh faces and no drama or bullshit. Okay, fine... why not? I ended up having the time of my life! The evening started with my friend rolling down her window on the way to the bar and shouting at a pedestrian "I like your skirt!!". And let's not forget our conversation in front of another chick at the bank: "Do you think I'm allergic to beer?" "No, I just think you're a cheap drunk" Pure brilliance right there my friends.

As my regular readers and close friends will already know, I've been going through some stuff lately. I haven't been sure where I'm at or what's going on in my own head. I think I finally got most of it figured out this week, and now I have a lot of things to work on. So I put up a wall and decided to spend some time sorting my own issues out. I barely get the damn wall up and 24 hours later I've got girls trying to break it down. Maybe I'm onto something here? lol I really clicked with a friend of a friend. Totally unexpected... and very scary for me. I just decided I need time to myself and now this great girl has a thing for me. I spent the first half of the night immersed in conversation, and the last half scared shitless about what to do. I like her... she's nice and funny and on the same nerdy plane as me. But then I started worrying about hurting her. I really don't know what I want right now, and I don't want to lead her in the wrong direction. My various moral compasses told me to slow down, take it one day at a time, and just get to know her. Fair enough. Nothing has to be forever if you don't want it to be... you can still enjoy the moment without committing your life away. One of my friends has shown this to me, and it's really interesting food for thought.

I went outside with my friend to get some fresh air and talk things out. Up walks two chicks... and one starts chatting me up. Sigh. "So... are you single?" Wow, now is really not a good time to ask me that question lol. She's pregnant... drunk... and smoking a cigarette. Really?! That's gonna be one fucked up baby. And yet she says she's bisexual. Yes, because clearly you got pregnant from sleeping with another girl. Move along now. Apparently I really dropped the ball when my admirer and her roommate were leaving, but I think I fixed it with a text message. Hello awkwardness, nice to see you again! Talk about friggin' pressure though! Sheesh. I kind of felt like I was expected to make a decision right then and there about whether I like her. Yes, I do... but I'm still not sure on what level. So I don't want to mislead her until I get that figured out... but I'm being asked to give her a sign... ARGH!! Anyway... we'll see what happens.

I can't say enough what a great night it was! I have no idea where things with this girl will go, but this is a great chance for me to try taking life one day at a time. And I have to admit my ego was pretty big by the end of the night, even if one of my admirers was a drunk pregnant chick. The night as a whole was a much-needed pick-me-up. It's scary because next time we see each other there are expectations... I really didn't want to go out on a limb again but at least this time I know what the reaction will be. Everything is just happening so fast right now! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! (insert emotional freak out here) Ah well... c'est la vie...