Another crazy busy week has passed. I stayed after work for 3 out of the 4 days. Ok granted, two of those three days were to drink beer, but still! One day was to do month-end stuff, and the fourth day I actually left early for a tattoo appointment. I'm adding on to a tattoo I originally got 5 years ago--the day of my 22nd birthday. I'm adding a background to it, something that is very symbolic and a powerful reminder of what I've accomplished and overcome in my life. So far it looks AMAZING--I love it!! It's only about half done though. I'm on the cancellation list for going in to have it finished. Yesterday it hit the flaky/itchy stage, and of course you can't scratch it (scratching during the healing stage wrecks the tattoo) so I'm limited to patting it, smacking it, and gently massaging it. I would give just about anything to scratch the shit out of it right now though!!
Big changes coming at work (hopefully). And hopefully that also means a big salary change lol. Not going to say much about it yet, but I'm hoping to have a meeting next week to finally come to an agreement with two of the managers regarding where I'm going and what I should be doing. And what certain other people should be doing instead of running all over the damn city and wasting time all day.....
I've been trying to get back on the home improvement bandwagon, but it's hard when there have been so many other things going on. I was going to devote this weekend to making progress on my spare bedroom, but some other more enticing options arose :) Friday was busy, I did my usual house cleaning, buying groceries, and got my hair cut. Saturday was crazy... I got a call from my biological dad saying my grandpa passed away. Funeral is next weekend about 40 minutes out of town. Then I went and played shinny with some friends, which was lots of fun despite a couple of little kids crashing our party, and my asthmatic lungs being somewhat uncooperative. After that a few of us went for a beer, then I came home and tried to have a quick nap. After supper I went to see an ABBA tribute concert with the local symphony orchestra. It was actually really good! A friend of mine had free tickets and just needed a date. I just got home and pulled into my parking space when I got a call from some other friends that I haven't seen in a while. They wanted to go out to the bar... and because these two are always a fun time, I agreed. The bar was good, I danced my butt off and drank an entire mini pitcher of water. I swear I have just as much (or more) fun at the bar when I'm sober.
So I saw this girl at the bar, who I may or may not have been creeping on facebook for the last week or so :P I know of her, and it's a long story that's far too complicated to type out. Or more like I'm just too lazy to get into the details lol. Anyway she's super hot, and from what I know, a good person. But..... I'm pretty sure she's only 21. There is a huuuuuge lifestyle/stage of life difference between 21 and 27! And I don't know if I want to risk it. Not only that, but last night I realized I have a big issue with taking risks in matters of the heart. True, "what have you got to lose?", but that's the thing... I feel like I have a lot to lose. Every rejection is a hit to my pride, my dignity, my self-esteem and my feeling of self-worth. I know I shouldn't take it so personally--I've rejected people myself!--but that's the thing, I don't know how to not care when someone rejects me. This is something I need to work on... ideally before next Friday. Thanks to good ol' facebook, I found out that this girl will be at the bar on Friday. It's an anti-Valentine's day thing, so everyone is being given name tags with "single" or "taken" on them. That helps with obstacle #1--is she in fact single? lol
Anyway I have a lot of thinking and a lot of work to do in the next week. By all means, if anyone knows of a quick and easy way to help overcome my fear of rejection, send it my way!
Much love!!
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